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Dear God

18 Aug

Dear God,

It hurts so bad. Please make it stop. Make me happy again. I feel as though I have lost everything; my faith, my purpose, and my love. It is all gone. I know I have my friends and family, but they only disguise the pain.

Sometimes at night I will get out of bed and go for a drive, hoping that by some impossible chance I will see her driving too.

I want to come home at night after work and see her car waiting for me outside my house.
I want to hold her again.
I want to feel that way once more.
I want her.

Sincerely,
Holden

Dear God

17 Aug

Dear God,

Tonight I pray for her. Well, every night I pray for her. But tonight especially. I pray that she is happy, or at least on the road to becoming happy. I pray that she finds what she is searching for, and that she follows your path. I pray that she knows I understand why. Because I do. I love her so much and I don’t think I will ever stop. I pray that she sleeps well and dreams of being with you.

Love,
Your struggling son.

Dear God

19 Jul

Dear God,
I don’t know if I can do this anymore. When I was younger and starting to like boys and getting crushes I would giggle and say a quick silly prayer that you would make him mine. When I was a teenager and saw all my friends with boyfriends I would pray that you would let one look at me like they did my friends. Now that I am 21, I am worried. I have never had a boyfriend and hear my mother and family worry I never will. I’ve said the prayers asking for you to make one like me back, but it has never happened. Not one. There is always someone else and that tears me apart inside. I even have given in to online dating, a big step for me. You see I think I’m finally not afraid to like someone and not run away if they like my back. I’ve met a good one I think, and we talk a lot, but the conversation is getting shorter and shorter, and I’m afraid I’ll loose this one too. So here is my last prayer. I’ll pray that he’ll keep talking to me and we can progress. I’ll pray he doesn’t move on to a
girl a size smaller in jeans and brains. I’ll pray this one will be mine for once. Please, if it doesn’t work I don’t know if my faith can hang on much longer.

Love,
A desperately single 21 year old

Dear Dean

8 Jun

Dear Dean,
I am still reeling, still waiting for someone to tell me to wake up, it’s all just a dream. You and I have known each other for 24 years, we grew up in front of each other. We both went through that awkward stage of should I or shouldn’t I date my best friend, and in the end decided that ‘shouldn’t’ makes more sense. That was until 6 years ago, we had one amazing night together, one I will remember until I am also gone. We waited too long to admit that we loved each other, as more than just friends. We kept it to ourselves and never told a soul, now I regret it, now I wished we had screamed it out over the mountain tops, now I wish I can just see you one more time, just to kiss you once more. I love you so Dean, and I will miss you forever, I wish you didn’t have to go.

Dear God

17 May

Dear God,
I am weary, and I am broken. I dread waking up. I dread going to bed. I know my trials are light compared to others, but I’ll be honest, I can’t take much more. I can’t take the uncaring, unloving, selfish husband. I can’t take the snobbish, bigoted community. I can’t take the bullying, self-serving, hypocritical co-workers. I can’t take the strain of anymore debt. I can’t handle anymore weight gain, I just can’t. I know you brought me to this place for a reason. And all these things are happening for a reason. Oh Dear Lord, please reveal yourself to me. Show me sign because I am fading fast.

Dear America

2 May

Dear America.

I was 8 years old when a teacher burst into my classroom, turned on our TV, and we watched the Twin Towers crumble into a pile of ashes.

We were in a classroom in a country primary school in Northern Ireland. It was the start of the work day where you were, and we were just about to go home from school. A 5-hour time difference, 3,000 miles, but we stood and watched with you.

In Northern Ireland, we knew what it felt like to live in fear. We knew what it felt like to feel so threatened. We were used, even at age 8, to scenes of death, destruction, devastation on our television screens. Terrorism tainted all our childhoods. But more people were killed on September 11th in New York than were killed in all the years of terrorism in our country. I’d never seen anything like it, and I hope to never see anything like it again.

That day I cried along with millions of children across the world, for people I’d never met, in a place I’d never been. My parents had to answer the same difficult questions as parents all over the world. But this morning it seems as though a battle has been won in your war against terror. And I will rejoice, and hope and pray, with the millions of people across the world who cried for people they’ve never met, in a place they’d never been on that cold September morning.

America, know you will never stand alone.

Dear Alex

17 Mar

Dear Alex, I miss you.  It will be 8 years this April.  You have missed so much.  Elijah will be a freshman in high school next year.  He is so smart; he will be in sophomore math.  He reminds me of you.  And, Seth, well he’s Seth; athletic and friendly, quick to forgive and always happy. He’s an awesome hockey player; made the PeeWee AA team as a 1st year.  And of course, there is Kaya.  She never got to meet you.  I wish she had.  You know, she’s amazing. She’s fierce, this baby.  She plays hockey just like her brothers.  She’s intelligent, artistic, confident, and beautiful.  When I look at her she is everything I ever wanted.  The Good Lord has blessed me, first with you as my little brother, then with these three.  I have been entrusted to care for so many, but sometimes I wish someone was here to care for me. You know mom and dad left.  They just couldn’t stay in the house anymore.  Too many ghosts.  We miss you.  Kaya always wants to hear stories about you.  I am
sorry I was gone so much once I left for college.  I am sorry I didn’t visit you more in school.  I am sorry my last words to you were, “I can’t make it to your graduation.”  I’m sorry.  I love you boo.  When my time comes, please meet me at the gate and lead me home. Love, Ate

Dear Death

2 Mar

Dear death,
Why do u take people away? They always say sharing is caring, but I don’t want to share anyone with you. You cause  a lot of people heartache and suffering. I know we can all get past you if we have faith in God because I know God controls you and tells me I shouldn’t fear. I just hate how you break apart families and leave people feeling empty.
Signed anonymous

Dear Dead Mother

26 Jan

Dear dead mother,

I’m sorry I blame you for how things are, the way I am, and how dad is now. It’s just so easy for me to blame it on you. I never really knew you. I have flashes of memories with you, but I was so young, I didn’t know anything about you. I don’t know your favorite colour, what music you liked, what your personality was like, what you were like in high school. I don’t know your opinions on the world or what hobbies you enjoyed. Although I blame you, I also thank you for the way I am. There is not a day that passes where I don’t think about you, or wonder how things would have turned out if you were still alive. I look at your photos and see how your smile is so bright and happy. Although there are many things I do not know, I do know that you were a selfless, kind hearted, caring women. I hope when I’m older, I can be like you, even if I don’t know exactly what that is. Thanks for everything. I hope you’re proud,

- your youngest daughter

Dear Lindsey

27 Dec

Dear Lindsey,

Why’d you get in that car, girl? I dunno if you had that pit-of-your-stomach bad feeling or not, but I wish you had. I wish you’d decided not to go wherever the hell you were on the way to. Because your husband is a broken man without you. I know you’re dead, but somehow, if I beg you hard enough, you’ll come back. I can’t stand to see my best friend in this kind of pain. He’s always been strong for me and for you. Babydoll, go be with him, to say goodbye at least.

thanks,

the three of us

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