Dear R

19 Jul

Dear R,

I miss you so much. I can’t believe it’s been over a year since you passed away. Life is definitely different without you. I could never fully explain how much you mean to me… and how much I love you. Your life made and is still making such an impact on me. You taught me to stay positive in the most negative of situations. Whenever I’m going through something, and I feel like it will never get better, I think of you. Some days when I think about the fact that I will never get to see you again… it’s almost too hard to bear. But I know you wouldn’t want me to dwell on it. I am just very thankful to God for giving me such an amazing best friend for 7 wonderful years.
Love Always,
Hannah

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Dear Best Friend

18 Jul

Dear Best Friend,
You mean more to me than you’ll ever know. And if I tell you this, you’ll tell me I’m just being nice. But it’s true. I just wanted to let you know that if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have told my parents something was wrong. And if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have gone through with therapy. And if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t have anyone to call when I’m crying at nigh. And if it weren’t for you, I wouldn’t be alive today. So, thanks. You’re my savior. And you are a WONDERFUL person.
Love,
Your best friend.

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Dear Grampa Jim

17 Jul

Dear Grampa Jim,

I didn’t come visit you in the hospital, because the thought of seeing you like that hurt too much. When I finaly got to visit you, I thought I would have another chance to see you.

A chance when I would be able to tell you how much I loved you and would miss you. A chance when I could thank you for everything you did for me. A chance when I could tell you that you were the best great grandfather a girl could ask for.

You were always so proud of me. And you loved me like I was your own daughter, even though you were like my step-great grandad or something. You married my great grandmother when I was seven. She was never happier than when she was with you.

I’m so sorry I didn’t visit you more often. And if you’re watching me, if heaven is real, then I want you to know that I’m sorry I lie to everybody about why I cut my hair so short. I really cut it because you used to tell me how pretty my hair was and that I should keep my hair out of my face. Everytime I saw it I thought of you. Now it’s only 3 inches long. And I think of you everytime someone asks me why. I love you. Thankyou for everything. I’m sorry.

Love,
Your Great Granddaughter

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Dear R

16 Jul

Dear R,

You’re completely out of my league, but sometimes I can’t stop thinking about you. You’re an athlete. You actually play my favorite sport, but I’m overweight, and you probably have never even thought of me in that way. I’m used to it, being “one of the guys.” But if you ever change your mind and decide that life doesn’t have to be perfect, give me a call because you’re one of the nicest guys I know, and I would hate to lose you.

Me

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Dear D

15 Jul

Dear D,

I hate that you have made me feel what I feel for you. You knew I was married, and I knew you were, too. I don’t know why I agreed to let you kiss me the first time. That’s not right, I do know why, I had wanted to for a long time. Everytime you called, I told you I would meet you, and on the drive to see you I would tell myself how stupid it was and that I really didn’t want to go and that I would tell you it had to stop. But I never did, and 3 years later here we are. I am still hurt that you let her know about us. I can’t believe you were that stupid! I can’t believe because of this I hurt the one person who I was never supposed to hurt. He has forgiven me, but I have not forgiven myself and don’t know if I ever will. Part of that has to do with not being able to let you go. I know it is for the best, and I am being selfish, but I don’t know if I can let you go. You see all the things that I never saw in myself. You have helped me more than you will ever know. You always ask what I want, but what about you…what do you want? You said that this wasn’t a forever thing, but then you had to tell me you loved me. That changed everything! I don’t want to want you, but I do. I just don’t know what to do. I love him. He is my life, and I can’t believe that I still meet with you and could possibly ruin my whole life. Why did I let you kiss me?

A

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Dear C

14 Jul

Dear C,

I’M OVER YOU. I have never felt so relieved in my entire life. I was hung up on you for 2 years after we broke up. But not anymore. I can honestly say I have no more feelings for you, … and it feels good.

Sincerely,
H

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Dear Parents

13 Jul

Dear Parents,

Mom and Dad: I love you. I do. I have to don’t I? I’m your daughter. You birthed me. That has to mean something? Yet sometimes I don’t know how I would feel if you died. You are my mother and my father. But you have never been my mama and you sir have definitely never been my daddy. Mom you had me and my siblings to have people to love you. For the attention. To be needed. WE were your coping mechanism. Dad – we were just more disrespectful mouths to feed. Thanks to you I never had a friendship with any of my brothers and sisters. They had to raise us. And also thanks to you we had no other friends outside the family. Now, when we’re all grown, our family is starting to heal. I can talk to my sister as an equal – as a friend. You took all of our childhoods away without a second glance. Even now, you cannot apologize. Will not. We mean the world to you? You would do anything for us? You. You took our lives, and didn’t even care you were doing it.
We are all in constant fear of becoming you. Dad, I see you in my brothers, and it makes me cry, so terrible is anything that resembles you. My greatest fear is becoming one of my parents. Selfish, psychotic, unreasonable, and self-absorbed. You have made me afraid to trust anyone or anything because of your mood swings and “apologies”. You have been nothing but two faced to me for as long as I can remember. How can I trust anyone if I cannot trust my own parents? How can I have children and raise them without turning into you? You’re all I’ve ever known. I do not want my children afraid of me. I do not want my children to have to take care of me. I want my kids to feel protected and loved and trusting. How can I do that when I’ve never felt that way myself? How can I love, never knowing what love is?

Your Technical Daughter.

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Dear You

12 Jul

Dear You,

I wont be jealous of you and your boyfriend anymore. I promise. I’m sorry. I love you.

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Dear Dad

9 Jul

I wish you weren’t that stubborn, and I wish you could stop controlling people and let people have their own freedom of life and actions.

I abhor your character, and I really need you to change it. My life is jus like one short pencil – just that it doesn’t have an eraser on the top. If you could be a really caring dad, I would really appreciate it.

Because of your character, you always got retrenched.
And I hated it.
You’re behaving like a small little kid.
You can’t continue like this.

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Dear You

8 Jul

Dear You,

I remember once I read another of these unwritten letters that was about a girl being in love with a boy she never met except through facebook stalking.  I remember being confused about how she managed to have these feelings for someone she never met.

Then, I stumbled across you.  We have a mutual friend that I stalk frequently and there you were, literally the writing on her wall.  You were cute and funny, so I clicked on your picture.  Mostly to see if the two of you were together.  You aren’t.  Not yet.

Then, magically, I discovered other webpages of yours.  There, I learned that we like all the same things.  And you’re funny, and sweet, and cute, but mostly funny.  I LOVE funny.

And we live in the same general area.  Maybe I’ll meet you someday…

But now, I just wanted to tell you that I understand how you can like someone you’ve never met.  I have a crush on you.  Just saying.

Love,
Your Super-Secret Admirer

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