Dear Radiohead and Thom Yorke, I can find the strength..

15 Jan

Dear Radiohead and Thom Yorke,

For years I have been riddled with crippling depression and suicidal thoughts.  I have laid in my bed, silently, unmoving, for hours, days, too sad to do anything. Your music, your countless songs, so powerfully sad, have helped me through those times.  When I lay in my bed like that, I can find enough strength to play OK Computer or In Rainbows. And that may be the only thing I can find the strength to do, but it’s something. Songs like “Videotape” don’t make me feel better, not by a long shot, but they do make me feel.  And that’s a huge step.  Thank you.

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Dear Me, you’re still here…

13 Jan

Dear me,

You’re 19 today. It’s been a full year since you vowed to kill yourself, and you’re still here. Happy birthday.

Love,

Me

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Dear MB, Did you think I was beautiful..

12 Jan

MB,

Did you think I was beautiful tonight at our annual company dinner?  That was for you.

M.

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Dear Dad, you told me to leave you alone…

11 Jan

Dear Dad, When you left, you took all of my Christmas ornaments from when I was a baby. You had a yardsale, and somebody said you were selling them, so I went to your house to try to buy them back.

You pushed me off the porch, slammed the door, and told me to leave you alone.

I cried all the way home.

Then, we had to see you in court. I begged my mom to let me stay home, but she insisted I go.

I tried not to look at you.

I kept my cool at the courthouse, but as soon as I got home I ran to my room and cried.

You’ve hurt me more than you will ever know.

Sincerely, one of your kids that you don’t see.

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Dear Laura

11 Jan

Laura,

Do better? For God sake woman, you love God, you’re gorgeous, intellectually stimulating, genuinely nice, ambitious and hardworking, fun to be with, damn hot body, and have my perfect ass, and like what I’m about. Yeah I couldn’t do better at all. Laura, I saw those in you the first time I met you. I’ve always thought of you as sweet and loving and blessed with beauty. The perfect catch… I mean it… I don’t say it enough, but you’ve always been beautiful to me first and then sexy. I know you’re the perfect girl to live a happy life with… Well it can’t hurt to start now. I’m always waiting to hear of some stud sweeping you off your feet. My dream in life is to be with a girl that I can come home to and enjoy being with every night. Watching movies, traveling and satisfying eachother. And possibly in Quincy or somewhere far off. You’re that girl.

Troy

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Dear Brain

6 Jan

Dear Brain,

I know you’ve been fighting this since the dawn of my attraction to anyone, but I’m not going to let you do this to me anymore. For almost 6 years I have been letting you convince me to ignore these thoughts, and I won’t allow it anymore. I’m tired of being incapable to accept myself. I hate that I’ve let this go on for so long. I’ve finally accepted who my heart makes me. I am me. And I am bi.

Love, Accepting Me

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Dear God

5 Jan

Dear God, I need your help now more than ever. I love my parents so much. I would never dream of not loving them. But they are not biological. They are not the genes that hold me together. Ever since I got the names of my birth parents I feel as though I’m incomplete. I look in the mirror and wonder, how do I look like this. Who do I take after. In 2011 I was able to see what my birth mother looked like. I was able to cope with her not wanting to reconnect. I have two requests if at all possible this year. Please let th birth mother wound heal. The other is to let me see what my birth father looks like. I have the name, I just need one of my searches to get me a photo. Even one would make me feel as though I finally know who I am and where I come from. Please let the unknown stop.

Love, half a puzzle

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Dear So Called Friends

2 Jan

So called friends- I see no reason to maintain good relationships with any of you if by this time next year I’ll be lucky if you even remember my name. Let.Me.Be.Free. When I wanted to stay, you didn’t want to talk about it; now that I’m eager to leave, you’re “sad” that I’m leaving and don’t want me to go. Yea right. -Angry For Freedom

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Dear Coaches, Is a win worth it?

30 Dec

Dear Coaches, It’s just a game, and they are only children.  You are suppose to be adults.  You do not have the right to call children names, curse at them or physically intimidate them. I am sorry you didn’t go pro, and you aren’t much of an athelete, but that is not the fault of the children.  I am sorry you keep losing games, but you are the coaches, and if you choose to threaten rather than teach, then the kids are never going to win.  You know what they say, “Attitude Reflects Leadership.”  You are not God.  You are a youth coach, no more, no less.  If the responsibility is too much for maturity level, then quit; the kids will be fine, but if you stay, I am truly afraid you are going to hurt one of the kids.  Let me ask you, is a win really worth hurting a child?

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Dear Mr. K

28 Dec

Dear Mr. K,

I know you’re bipolar.  I know you’re manic to the point of psychosis.  I know that you’re not yourself, that you’ve lost touch with reality, that it’s not you inside that shell.  But that doesn’t excuse what you’re doing.

You shouldn’t be driving, because you’re a danger to yourself and others on the roads.  You shouldn’t be allowed to keep firearms at home, because there’s a very real possibility that you might snap and use them.  You shouldn’t be around your wife or kids, because you are threatening to hurt them.  Did you know that your wife is afraid to seek help because she thinks that if you find out, you’ll kill her and the girls?  Do you know that if you lay a hand on either of your daughters, my mom–who knows all about the “situation” in your house–is required by law to report you to CPS?  Do you know that you are ruining their lives, and even if they are ever able to get away from you, they’ll be running for the rest of their lives?

This isn’t you.  It can’t be you.  You’re a good husband and a good father and you love your wife and kids.  You’re in there somewhere.  You have to fight your way out before you hurt them.  Some part of you must recognize that you need help.  Please.

A concerned friend of the family

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